My First Entry

Everyone has untold fears. One of the greatest fears I have is "not knowing". I can't stand the mystery of where my life is heading. I hate the unknown and the ambiguous. I feel helpless over my lack of control.

My self esteem plummets when I am around people because I am unsure of what others are thinking. I am scared to know the answers I always ask myself.

How am I affecting them?
Am I irritating or troublesome?
Am I good enough?
Can I meet their expectations?

Why me, when there are a lot more people who are better than I am?Living in a society of communities, I know I must improve my social skills and learn to live with people. But I had chose to put this paper bag over my face, in hope that no one can see the emotions on my face. I don't want them to see my vulnerability.

Ginger